Wow!!! Have I been grouchy for two days. And tired. And overworked. And behind. And out of sync. And lazy. And unmotivated. And blah. I was so grouchy yesterday, I did not even like being around myself. Even my reactions to events and details and crisis are out of line.
I get this way every spring. Grouchy and out of sync. I become especially out of touch with God. I think even God hangs back a little at this time of year with me and says, “OK, Mary Ann, be a grouch, forget about the blessings in your life, and stew a little…. I will just hang here until you are ready to get back in touch.” I felt the strong presence of the Holy Spirit all last week, but I did not hear God much this week. It was not because God was not near me. He was there….I have just been really busy having my own loud, grouch party.
So tonight, I am going to remember the words of Isaiah 41:10, “Fear not, for I am with you; Be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.” I am going to focus on the blessings in my life. I am going to put lavender on my pillow. I am going to set a reminder on my phone for tomorrow morning that says, “Fear not, for I am with you.” And I am going to ask God to quiet me and give me the focus to move out of my grouchiness because I have a lot of meaningful work to do.